Monday, January 18, 2010

pledge


Go to Oprah's Site and pledge to not use your phone when you drive. It is stupid and you are risking other people's lives because of your selfishness.
You may be thinking -- "okay April, going a little overboard here"..... but there is a reason I am passionate about this. A little over 9 years ago Sam and I were in a totally preventable accident. Ours is a little more stupid and embarrassing -- but just as preventable as texting and talking on the phone. Thank goodness it is illegal now in Oregon and I hope it becomes illegal everywhere.
If you are wondering what happened with Sam and I, well........ he had just returned home from his mission (he was in Argentina for 2 years) 6 days earlier and he proposed to me that night at my little brothers football game (over the loud speaker in the middle of the stands in front of everyone......so not Sam...but very fun). Anyways we were on our way - driving over to Sam's parents house to tell them the news and in all of the engagement excitement -- we were young, dumb kids and kissed while I was driving. My eyes were off the road, the car drifted to the right and hit a telephone pole. I never saw it coming (because my eyes weren't on the road) -- so I never applied the brakes and I totaled the car. I have no memory of that night - except by miracle I do remember the engagement. Sam on the other hand remembers everything, the sounds, the pain, the fear. He thought he watched me die. I suffered a severe concussion and severe shock (they were actually more worried about my level of shock than anything else), they had to cut my clothes off, I got stitches above my eye and on my knee, my face between my eyes and up my forehead were so swollen I looked like an alien and I had memory problems that still sometimes affect me. I had to be on bed rest for a month (my poor mom and sister had to bathe me - yikes) After I was able to get up and around -we figured out I also suffered back injuries. Sam broke his hand and his collar bone. It still drives me insane that I can't remember anything about it. It's like my brain is always searching and scanning trying to remember. I do get senses of things sometimes, like if I see an accident played out on a movie or tv -- it makes me sick because it's almost like a deja vu feeling. I also have a sense that I have had things done - but I don't remember, like getting a brain scan and having oxygen in my nose. I don't remember having those things done, but somehow my body remembers the feeling -- it's weird. The thing that kills me still to this day is that I had gone 2 years without Sam and 6 days after I got him back, I almost killed him. I don't know why we didn't die, there were no airbags and everyone at the scene said they honestly didn't know how we lived. Even the thought of losing him and it being my fault.......I just have to push that out of my mind otherwise it is too much for me to handle. We are so luck that there were no other cars or people around that I could have ran into. I can't think about that either. That was 9 years ago and it still bothers me so much to think about.
I hope everyone thinks about what is most important when they are driving -- be safe. And always wear your seatbelt!!
ok -- i'm done preaching now :)


Friday, January 15, 2010

just be afraid


For Christmas my brother and sister in law got Jackson a Yo Gabba Gabba singing guitar. For those of you who don't know Yo Gabba Gabba is a weird kids show with weird characters and silly songs -- but the kids love it. Anyways, the guitar plays a bunch of songs.
I walked into the girls room the other day and Gwen was playing with it and singing along so seriously. What I thought was funny was the lyrics she was singing. The actual words to the song goes: "Don't be afraid, Don't be afraid, Don't be afraid, It's Okay." Gwenny was singing "Just be afraid, Just be afraid, Just be afraid, It's Okay."
It seemed so funny (and a little creepy) to me that my child thought that one of her toys was singing the words "Just be afraid" and she was totally okay with that.
Anyways -- just thought I'd share that... it may be one of those "you had to be there" stories -- but whatever.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

thankful


I somehow came across THIS blog this morning. It broke my heart for this poor mom, but also really inspired me to see what incredible faith she has in our Savior, even in such horrible, heartbreaking circumstances.
I would hope that I would be able to be as strong if I were thrown a trial like that. Which I pray would never happen.
It also made me so extremely thankful that I am blessed with such a great life. I have a wonderful husband and 3 beautiful, healthy kids. They may test my patience some days, but I couldn't imagine my life without them. They are my joy and my happiness. I am so honored to be their mother. I don't think it was an accident that I came across this story. I think sometimes I need to be reminded how blessed I truly am and fully appreciate what I have been - and continue to be blessed with everyday.
I hope I can keep this in my heart as I clean up their toys, their clothes, their dishes, make them food and do all the daily things I do. I would much rather be doing those things than not, because that means that they are here. They are mine.

Monday, January 11, 2010

hope

When this quarter started Sam went to sign up for classes like usual but when he looked closer at his school plan -- he realized - he is DONE with classes!!!! This is so exciting for us because the end of school may actually be in sight. Finally. We have been married 9 years and he has been in school the whole time. (he should be a doctor by now right?!?) Anyways -- he still has quite a ways to go -- he has to do his thesis, which could take who know's how long. But at least he has completed all the classes and now this is all he will have to focus on. Yipee!! :)

Sunday, January 10, 2010

suckers

As we opened our gifts from each other on Christmas -- someone said "it's like every commercial on tv" And then it dawned on me -- they are totally right. And when I thought about it more - I realized we actually have quite a few things from "As Seen on TV"
This is what I have come up with so far............

From just this Christmas Gwen got

1. Bendaroos --- these actually are pretty fun for the kids. They are basically just little wax sticks -- but it keeps the girls entertained forever. THUMBS UP

2. Snuggie -- I got one a couple months ago and I love it. Gwennie got a pink kids size one. Mine was from Costco and was a "deluxe" one -- and it really is nicer - the fabric is much softer. But I love mine and Gwen loves hers :) THUMBS UP

in the past, this is what we have acquired.......

3. ShamWOW -- at first we were not sold on these. We even referred to them as ScamWow. But now that they are broken in more -- I do like them. THUMBS up (not in caps because wasn't blown away from the beginning)

4. Magic Bullet -- we originally bought this because it claims it can grind wheat -- and since I have a ton in food storage - I thought it might be a good idea to have something to grind it up. We haven't actually ever tried it on that -- BUT we do make a whole lot of smoothies and milkshakes. And we love it!! THUMBS UP!!

5. Turbo Cooker -- this is a big frying pan thing that we were given for a Christmas gift from Sam's dad a few years back. It's a good pan -- but I have never used it in all of the ways it claims to work. But it is a good pan..........so THUMBS up :)

6. Pasta Maker -- when Sam was on his mission -- I thought this would be a great idea. Sam loves pasta so I thought I could get this pasta maker and make him homemade pasta. Turns out - I suck at making pasta and the Pasta Maker was no help at all. THUMBS DOWN!

7, P90X -- this one we did not technically buy. My friend Lisa did and we now somehow have it burned on our computer.......... Anyways -- I have done it twice - but have not made it all the way thru the 12 weeks either time. The first time I did it with Lisa. We made it almost 10 weeks------SO close. But then I found out I was pregnant and had already had a miscarriage earlier in the year -- so I called it quits just to play it safe.
The next time -- Sam and I did it. We lasted for about 7 weeks. I really love the work out -- it really does give good results. The hardest thing is the time commitment. It is 6 days a week and each workout is 1.5 hrs.
If I ever actually finish this - it would get a THUMBS UP.

COMING SOON (whenever we have money) this is on Sam's wish list........

* The Dual Saw
* The Works GT

as for me..... I have been watching a lot of home shopping shows - since we lost our cable....... and what gets me every time is all the creams for hydrating skin, look younger, make your skin glow, etc..... but what girl doesn't want to glow?!?

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

you have GOT to be kidding me!!!!!

So Sam finally cuts his braid and I get my cute Sam back. Then today - he comes home from school with his front tooth chipped!! I cannot even look at him without laughing! Let's hope we can get him into the dentist quick. :)

Monday, January 4, 2010

well.............I'm 30

So to be honest turning 30 sucked. My actual birthday pretty much sucked. We left our camping Christmas that morning so we had to wake up and clean all the facilities. Then we had to drive home -- 4 hours. We decided to stop for a fun lunch at least so I wanted TGIFridays. It is in Portland so we waited - passing up lots of other choices. So it was about 3 by the time we got there........... and then it was closed! I was so sad. So then I decided we would try out Cheesecake Factory since it was close. But then--- there was a 50 min wait -- at 3pm -- what the??? So there was no way we could wait that long -- plus I had to get home to make cookies for a friends farewell party that night. So all in all -- the day wasn't the best.
But it's been more then made up for.
The day after my birthday my friends Lisa and Kris put together a fun hula hoop party for me. We went to the church - so there was lots of space and played hula hoop games and learned (well kinda) some new tricks. It was a lot of fun.

some great gals!!!
if you can tell -- there is a piece of cake in front of me with a fork sticking out of the top -- that was my "candle" since we can't have open flames in the building. Much easier to blow out :)
the kids loved to go behind the glass and scream their heads off :)

Next was one of my favorite things -- Sam cut his stupid little braid off. I didn't even ask for him to do it. He obviously knows I hate it -- but had given up on asking. So the day after my birthday he surprised me with this braid dangling in my face. Then he made me cut his hair -- but I was more than happy to.
for some reason he really wanted me to put his braid in my mouth and then he would hold the braid in his mouth -- but I really didn't want that thing in my mouth :)

Finally my family had a party for me after our Christmas. They got me one of those big chocolate cakes from Costco... mmmmmmm.

All in all I had a pretty great year -- still not too excited about being 30 -- but at least I have pretty great family and friends to make me feel special.

Christmas Number 2

Since we spent Christmas with Sam's side of the family -- we had another Christmas with my family the following weekend. Most of my family lives up here in Oregon now but my oldest sister Amber and her kids still live down in Cali. Our kids are best friends with each other -- they adore each other and I love it when we get to be together. I love to just watch them play. Addie cried and cried when we had to say goodbye. I wish we took more pics of their trip here and of all of our Christmas. Oh well here is some....

they had a lot of fun putting this gingerbread house together.............
our second "christmas morning" --- still just as exciting
These pictures really don't do justice to the dresses. My mom made these dresses for the girls and they are just beautiful. You have to see them in person to get the full effect. Gwen's also looks better without a shirt on under the dress -- but it was itching her - so to get her to wear it to church I had to let her wear the under shirt. I just need to find a better undershirt so you can't see it so much.
Merry Christmas......again! :)

a Camping Christmas

So if you ask Sam he says it wasn't camping. But it was at a place called Zion's Camp.
We slept on a blow up bed and when I woke up to pee in the middle of the night I had to walk outside to walk to the bathroom. I call that camping. However we did have the luxury of heat, electricity and a big conference room that had games such as ping pong, air hockey, board games, plus it had a huge screen and projector that we watched movies on. So if I have to go camping - that's the kind of camping I like. :)
I love Sam's family -- they are a bunch of great people and I am so glad we got to go spend Christmas with them.

Most of the Ward family................
Sam, Rus, RaeDell, Des, and Brent...........
Cute cousins -- can you tell they love each other.............
Sam's parents with the kiddos...........
Jackson loved the tire swing........
He also loved being swung by his cute aunties..........
This rope swing was also a big hit with all the kids..............
The lake was frozen in some places - so they had fun breaking pieces off and throwing it to hear the shatter of ice. It was fun until Gwenny fell and her whole foot (shoe and all) got soaked. When she fell I think it kinda shocked her because she didn't move. She just sat there with her foot in the ice cold water -- don't think that's the reflexes I would want her to have if she fell into a lake :)
They decorated Christmas cookies -- and they were yummy!!

Santa CAME!!!!

they make me happy......................





Sam's annual tradition of making a "roaring" fire!! :)